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When Will I Get to Be Beautiful?
You don’t become beautiful when someone tells you, you are beautiful.
Growing up, I used to ask myself, “When will I get to be beautiful?” Have you ever asked yourself that question? I grew up with my looks always being nit-picked at often. I was never the right weight. I didn’t have the right hair and my acne was so bad, my face would bleed at random. I definitely was not a trophy of beauty in my family. So, that’s what I thought anyway.
Many nights, tears would flow from my eyes and I would ask God, “When will I be beautiful?” This was back in my teen years. Now I’m in my early 30’s. I have since blossomed and I no longer ask that question.
However, I have something to say to my younger self: “You will be beautiful, when you choose to be beautiful. A beauty that comes from the heart. Take the pain of the love lacking in your life and love those around you who feel the way you do.
The core of beauty is not wrapped up in the physical, but in the tears you cry while choosing to get better, instead of bitter. It’s in the day to day choice to forgive the soul crushers in your life. It is in the faith you have to believe, that one day your life WILL be more beautiful than your dreams.”
